I want you to know that on this day,by looking at your picture you have inspired me. By hearing your voice today, it gave me a sense of urgency. Your Picture, Your Voice, Your Future!
I know you don't know about all the "great ideas" that I've had in my life. All the one's I've tried over the years, all the business plans I've written, the partnership that failed, the money invested, all the jobs I've had, all the classes I've taken, the certifications and degrees, BUT I want to document for you that on THIS day, looking at your picture, hearing your voice, and thinking about your future has made THE difference.
Look how cute you are! That's a great color on you. You are such a happy little girl. You can't really see your shoes in this picture, but they are super bad and the color is coordinated with your outfit. I can't wait to see you as a young lady - it's going to be high fashion - no matter what you decide to do or be you are going to do it in high fashion.
This is professional Easter pictures that your mother and grandmother had taken. I was in town for this holiday and cherished every moment that I was with you. We read, we sang (B is for Bunny), played with legos, colored in a coloring book, played with your doll baby, and watched Charlotte's Web. You used the potty! You are so smart! I have some more pictures of you and I at a cookout. I'll post them later. Maybe I'll add them to this post to keep this time frame all together.
One of my friends came in my house the other day and he commented that my "Danaja Shrine" was growing. I have a spot for your pictures and yes, it is growing. This picture however is in my bedroom. I've looked at it every morning and every night and just think and think and meditate and meditate on what I can do for you. What do I need to do for you? I just keep thinking, it's gotta be big. I gotta think big. This little girl deserves to see the world. The whole world. There is nothing to hold me back to make that happen for you...just gotta think big!
Tonight as I was preparing to go to sleep, I looked at your picture. I turned off the light and was about to fall asleep and I couldn't sleep. I HAD to go get my black folder, instructions for your father "in the event of my demise" and frantically I added a note in there for you. A note to let you know that I had unconditional love for you; forever and always - THEN it was as though a bolt of lighting hit me. All of the facilitation of meetings, training sessions and workshops that I have done over the years for so many companies and organizations. All the books I've read!!! All my latest ideas about developing a workshop and Theory U and my crafts and my picture wall, and the latest books I've been reading. It has felt like things weren't adding up and I couldn't see all the connections, then it just dawned on me that ...that was it "THE BLACK FOLDER PROJECT". I don't have to search and use someone else's theories and ideas, by God, I have my own. I've had it all along. It was already there. I've never been so sure of anything in my life. I can't sleep. I've been working on this idea for about two hours now and all I can do is laugh at this point because this is flowing out like a river. It is not a struggle. I can see this happening. I am NOT afraid of it failing or succeeding. WHAT do I have to lose. I'm going BIG. I'm just going to do it. Nobody has to validate it. Nobody has to understand it, agree with me, help me, fund it, tell me it's a good idea, partner with me...consider it done!
Just know that it was your picture, your voice and your future that inspired me.
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